New Lea(f)ve

I've had to say goodbye more times than I may have like, but everyone can say that. 

And no matter how many times we have to do it - 

even if it's for the greater good, it still stings. 

And although we will never forget what we've given up, 

we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. 

What we can't do is live our lives afraid of the next goodbye because chances are they are not going to stop. 

The trick is to recognize when a goodbye can be a good thing - 

when it's a chance to start again.

Be Kind To Yourself.

Be kind to yourself. Stop telling yourself that whatever you are struggling with “should” be easy. If something is hard for you, it is hard for you. There are probably Reasons, though those may just be how you are wired. Acknowledge these things. When you finish something hard, be proud! Celebrate a little. 

And really, just stop saying “should” to yourself about your thoughts and feelings in any context. You feel how you feel. The things in your head are the things in your head. You can’t change either directly through sheer force of will. You can only change what you do. Stop beating yourself up for who and what you are right now–it isn’t productive. Focus on moving forward.

 

What Are We Afraid Of?

Both shallow and deep

An answer;

Both hungry and weak

Some often too bold to speak

"Roaches, reptile, aging" girls they squeak

"Death" or "empty accounts," probably

Every three other weeks

Honest feeling,

rarely they speak

Rejection, condemnation

what more do you seek?

A masked persona

We put on exilic

To speak untruths - "it's okay"

While crying creeks

what do we fear?

Emotional leaks.

"Everyone is afraid of something. We fear things because we value them. We fear losing people because we love them. We fear dying because we value being alive. Don’t wish you didn’t fear anything. All that would mean is that you didn’t feel anything." —  Cassandra Clare, Lord of Shadows

My biggest fear is that eventually, you'll see me as I see myself.