Meta-Confusion

I wish I could.

I would if I could.

I know I shouldn't.

But i didn't for you.

I say I don't lie.

I said I won't cry.

But all I did was lie;

worst in front of you,

with tears falling like snowflakes all night.

Its like my fault.

To have done what I did.

I thought I should,

but now I wish I hadn't.

It hurt when you say I hurt you.

I never meant to hurt you.

I can't stop thinking how much this pain is.

The pain of how brutal it is to see you sad.

No one really ever needs this much thinking.

I do wish I would stop thinking.

But I somehow can't stop thinking about you.

You somehow became my drug.

I have alot of I(s),

and the part where you said we;

will never die.

...is it broken?

Or has the broken just been mended?

I've been so pessimistic about everything. I know I have. You can see that I have too. But you know something? I've come to know that you have become part of my pessimistic life and metamorphically morphing me into a colourful emo being. Laughs. You know how much I love it. I appreciate you FrenchTeddy! Bet on it and I'd never do anything to hurt you.

I don't see how I could with such a cheeful heart, such witty mind, such brightness, super kindness and not to mention all the hearts. I love my kidTeddy. ❤