Claps for Timing

Oh great!

Just when I'm about to sleep, I get INTERNET.

Honestly, it's one of the most addictive things for me. (laughs)

though I seldom admit it. x]

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Its been a dread not having internet for the past few days.

..and the BEST part of it is NOT knowing why the heck I can't get online.

Modem is working fine,

Line seems to be alright.

Housemates aren't facing this problem.

Could it be software?

Or my port has problems?

(Apparently NOT. Since I'm here now at this hour when EVERYONE is asleep) --hinting.

"...ERROR MSG: Cannot connect you to the main IP Address..."

like wth is this? hmm. could it be I'm being blocked?

or is there truely forces keeping me from getting on?

Everythings so messed up and I've no idea what to think.

Assuming stuff would just make an ass of you and me.

-- ASS U ME-- (quoted from my dad who was the one who taught me not to assume stuff)

** I LOVE YOU DADDY **

So anyways, its like 4.31am here and the migraine is killing me.

Hoping that what I 'guessed' it to be the problem, would not be the problem.

(Gotta dispute my irrational beliefs from rational ones; REBT,

Rational Emotive Behavioural Therapy)

FYI, for those who do not know what REBT is,

it is actually a therapy in Psychology, by Albert Ellis.

One of the 1st Cognitive Behavioural Therapeutics.

Haha, so much for hitting with yal with a little knowledge of Psychology.

Its bedtime for me.

Cheers. (:

For yesterday

Couldn't online yesterday. So this is my belated post dated for 7th April 2010! :D

Felt so bad from tutorial class today. Forgot to read the article given and it kind of seemed that I might have disappointed my tutor. Seeing those eyes which were filled with hopes and anticipation then being let down, is utterly brutal! Even my sorries weren’t good enough. It’s like seeing a kid being taken away that glow or joy and having to drag through the entire session. (sighs)

Yet, after that class, had the most interestingly boring lecture. It was rather fascinating due to the fact that my ‘name’ was constantly being called – like literally!

The topic was on Existentialism by Rollo May, and a lot of ‘destiny’ being said.
“..it’s your destiny for……etc”

And every time ‘destiny’ is mentioned, (laughs) I couldn’t help looking up to look at the lecturer. And scarily, whenever the word is said by the lecturer, there would be echoes, or people imitating the word.

And FYI, my name is Destenie, same pronunciations with ‘destiny’. So go figure. (:

And the LOGIC of the day!

--- Grass bleeds --- (Mr DingDing, 2010)

Do you know that smell when the grass or lawn is being mowed?

And I quote my friend ( Mr DingDing), he says, “The grass is bleeding” (but of course in Chinese). But it kind of made sense, like in a freakishly way. But it’s still does make sense. Doesn’t it?

Its funny how there will always be that smell whenever a blades slices it top off.

Cheers!

And btw, here is Mr DingDing. From foundation, two years back. Really friendly person and kind-hearted. Its so hard not to fall for him from all his cuteness but I, WE, manage. (laughs)

Anyways, will be updating more about my peeps!

And I guess, next up would be my M.C.D family. Super loving them all the way!

So tata for now.

I want a pretty blog

My attempt of a makeover for my blog was an epic failure!

Wasted almost half of my moments awake to do some HTML thingy which looks real nice,

but at the end the tweaks were the bugs.

could only see my posts and could NOT

-Follow

-Share

and/or

-Comment

*sighs*

So at the end of it, I decided to save the HTML codes and all,

but reverted to the templates provided by Blogger. *sobs*

I want a pretty Blog!

Prays hard for someone to come rescue my bareless blog,

and that it may be dolled up and ready to impress!

And yet again, I am seriously hopeless with tech stuff.

The attempt to put ads for Nuffnang
was a complete and utter failure TOO.

Yet another thing to perk up my day.

Anyways, off to complete slides for presentation.

Which I know I can successfully do! *fingers crossed*

Wish me luck (:

God Bless!

PS: Life goes on no matter how big the obstacle is.

Never give up because of difficulties.

But strive to accomplish and overcome them.

A makeover

What's new today.

Woke up late today.
And that's exactly how bright the sun was shining onto my face.
Went straight to my laptop,
and found that someone there,
all awake, bright and early from the last message of 8.11am.
Was so sleepy eventhough I woke up at 11am. (snickers)
..and DUH! Pain!
My wisdom tooth is toying with me again.

It has been popping up and about for quite awhile, but cant see any whites yet.

Gum is hurting bad!

..on the upside...

Had an early jamming session,
from a small kiddo-kind of jam,
to a rocker-kind! *screams*
..and which was without doubt AWESOME!
-loved how that someone made music with their hands.
and frankly, I feel that picture and feeling of the kid w/guitar somehow reminds me of the person who jammed for me this morning.
*the innocence
*that passionate energy
just spells BRILLIANCE.
it was just so awe with all the strumming, plucking and singing!

Oh! and another update.

...had joined Nuffnang today.

Hoping to get something out of it =D

Seeing lots of friends joining it too. hehe.

*fingers-crossed* hoping for the best!

Kiddo!

...Being a kid again never felt this awesome.

It was one of those days where
people don't get enough sleep,
people turn into pandas; literally.
being all blurry and into bamboos. (laughs)

Had a presentation early early at 8am. but was satisfactory as our group didn't get much bad criticism from the lecturer.


--Here comes the serious part--（¯﹃¯）


Still, from here, the part of
'Not to judge a book by its cover'
..and how..
'People see the sawdust in other's eyes but not the plank in front of their eyes'

1)Looking at other's appearance, do not underestimate (or overestimate) their capability. You may get your heart skipping a beat from the unpredictable outcome. If its that way, might as well just not estimate, not expecting and just BE LIKE A KID and be surprised at whatever may come at you and live fully in it.
* the most awestruck feeling ever! *

2)And then there is the sawdust thingy.
To have introspection; Reflect on one's own thoughts and feelings .
Its easy to point out what you see others' mistakes are. What their flaws are, but how bout yourself? You act as a mirror to the person where you see all that is done by him/her which she don't see em', that's where as a friend, associate, supervisor, senior shall point out to the person. But being so, still you need to keep check of yourself.




--its a dilemma of whether to laugh or to pity-- ╮(╯_╰)╭

At times it feels hilarious how when YOU point out people's flaws which are also actually your own. But yet, no one tells you about it, it kinda seems ruth, that at least since you pointed out other's flaws, they may be aware of their mistakes and change. But, its not for you.
* YOU; are the person in which is a big influence to how we would conduct our lives here while still in this organization. Also one of the components why its hard to tell you. Egoistic is another one of your strong traits which no one dares to step into.


--Being a kid-- O(∩_∩)O


..this is where being a kid really is awesome.
Although, there's the
"What's yours is mine,
and what's mine is mine." ~for toys, food, etc. (LOL)
..but still, the thought of needless criticism and just laughing all the way is awesome. There are lots of things in which need not be stressed about.
* Sweets, Pacifier, Dolls, and playing dress-up can be rather pleasing.
ESPECIALLY the NAPPING part. ♥ *


--Here's the BEST PART of it--(╯▽╰)




Today, someone taught me how to say the word 'K'. =3
like how in kindergarten, the teachers will teach how to pronounce and repeat saying K. K. K. K. K. over and over again.
Though its kinda silly to just repeat the word eventhough you know it.
But still its an awesome silly scene!

..listening to that someone saying K, imagining the person's lips' movement,
and how that person laughs at how silly you are and yet it actually seems like you are actually fooling that someone who think you're silly... WICKED! ~\(≧▽≦)/~

Heart's addiction

Its a once-upon-a-time fairytale again.
This time, you were my choice of drug;
my latest addiction.
Started out fun
and turned into something I needed.
And overused,
Classic substance abuse.
Totally boring.
So, End of story.

But nothing really ends until the book is closed...
So far, the pages are still, and as wide as open.

Fill in the spaces; if you will.

Another Year Strikes Again

My first post for the first day of the New Year [ 2010 ]

(hopefully this year I'd write more here. *chuckles*)

So anyway, a quote just suddenly POP-ed to my head.

"You Reap What You Sow "

So go figure;

I believe it's true that "What goes around, comes around", really.

So this year (and well not only this year),

I'll sow good hoping to reap some goodness in return too. ((:

We'll see when's my next post, so til then, I shall bid you farewell.

Cheers (:

God Bless ((:

Its an amazing feeling this is.

The world changes to be a different dimension according to one's mood.

Its like a metamorphosis happens,

all depending on what colour of mood you are in.

This is a promise I'm making,

for better or worst of the ones I love.

This promise to always be happy.

Words of a text,

have no emotions,

have no feelings.

Emoticons in it can be typed merely just for the sake of hiding one's true self.

One's perspective may begin from here.

One text

One sentence

or even ONE symbol.

Can bring meanings beyond your expectation.

All depending on one's mood.

I found out today that Happiness overrules whatever negativity one has.

Pessimism are so overrated.

and this coming from a former pessimist.

and truly, God has done it again.

HE did the impossible.

The one thing I thought I'd never face again.

The one feeling that was once lost and wasted.

--the blessedness of being loved--

HE will never disappear no matter how awful we have treated HIM.

This I know, and am ashame off.

Blaming Him for everything bad that has happened to me.

the hurt in which He allowed me to go through.

But, what I didn't see was,

HIS warm embrace when I needed someone to be there for me.

HIS warm touch which melted my broken heart,

allowing it to melt in order to reshape it,

making it WHOLE again.

HE had His way with me.

and I am and shall always be thankful for it.

This post, will remind me of how wonderful HE has been.

Finding me love and a way back to HIM.

Its amazing how when you love someone and get few folds in return.

Its just awesome!

This is ♥ LOVE ♥

HE forgives.

HIS heart is so kind and warm.

And when people are in love,

they usually want to announce their love

or make sweet gifts for their loved ones.

SONGS to HIM are HIS people's gift back to HIM,

for the talents and gifts HE has given.

Forevermore, the songs praising and singing of HIS love,

cures my heart,

making my heart whole again.

Bringing back what I thought was lost.

The invincible me which no one saw,

Everything fulfilled and satisfied with more to be shared by others.

--Life would be a mistake if without music--

the songs which sings of love of Him to us and us to Him

Smile for HE shall not leave you.

Be glad as YOU are seen special and precious in HIS eyes.

When you feel all is lost, HE will provide that HOPE for a better tomorrow,

which HE will fulfill.

♥

a prayer that everyday shall be my today for all.

full of bliss and ♥ LOVED ♥

AMEN

theMirror.

My heart is uncertain of what would happen.
you show your heart to another, to me with colour
wishing u happiness but mirror mirror is my game.

My mirror.
My world.
you cant always mean what you say
I look to my mirror
to get those words
its the reflection of what is unseen
to those who is of the blinded heart.

How would you know.
How would you care about what u don't know
you will never understand me.
Only me and my mirror-ed heart.

Never never will I look at you the same
you are forever a reflection I will never change.
you don't even know who you are
to want to begin knowing who I am.

you'll never know my mirror.
the only one that sees my fever.
the slashes of pain.

mymirror.

it didnt realy matter.

as long as its forever.

but forever is watever

and wat is ever?

ever is never without the N

without N in u and I.

there's no forever.

X=

__.RaGe.__

Stab you HARD.
may you bleed to hell.
Who'd give a damn for the loss shed blood.
I know I WON'T.
You know YOU won't.
We know you're crap,
someone not worth the heart.

You ask....
Pity or Love, the question choice will be.
If there's hatred, a definite YES for thee.

Beast is not the crime
but BEAUTY fits to be judged.
Fake Hearts are the Devil's LUST.
I'll never be the crime,
the damn you are.

making Crime.

how could you be so blind,
yet, so fine.
being there, acting like you just so care.

how can you be mean and kind
when all you're trying to be is mine?
treating like its all a game
pro-ness in the name.

you'll never be mine
i'll never be yours.
i'll move along
dragging my heart away.
kill the love which you've set to play.
ticking it off like its my dooms day.

its done.
its clear.
we're done,
never near.

LOVE is not meant to be meddled with.

defined according to me.
of our HUMAN.love

L __OST
O __VERWHELMED
V__EXED
E __VERYTHING


love ISNT that hard to understand, because there's NO WAY we can.
lets NOT play GOD and stop acting like a know-it-all.
ps: don't try understanding it.
if you did. you'll be in
LOVED __ISMAY

brokeness fills

I'm breaking down.

In and Out.. now,

NOTHING matters to my broken heart.

(so broken heart)

Not even the ONE who once put the smile on my face,

the tears in my eyes,

the scar in both skin and heart.

Softly going down the isle of misery

Thank You for the ending.