Why will you not unfold yourself to me?

Dear you,

It has been raining since we last met.

As though the heavens know

that my heart is adrift.

To find a soul so beautiful,

and not being able to be yours,

when all I want is for you to be mine.

Nothing in this moment could be as excruciatingly painful.

Maybe in time I have become wary and worn of the games of the heart.

And I shan't partake in giving similar doubts and aches to another.

..hoping one day to be treated equally.

You; are the first I knew exactly - "it's you"

I want nothing more than to shout it to the world that you're my person.

I want nothing more than to be close to you, even if it's not to hold you.

To give you all the love in my heart.

To everyday, paint a smile on your face as you do mine effortlessly.

To be your comfort place.

To be everything you need.

..but for now, this burning love will just set ablaze in my heart.

Burning only myself in the wait, 

as periodic tears puts it out,

I hope you'll come to see and feel as I do you 

before my fire turns to coal.

For now, pretence should be my best of friend.

To wear a mask that conceals my passion for you - until a time you unfold yourself to me.

Dear self, take heart. 

Won't you?

“Most of us have, at one point, uttered this word.

Perhaps under our breath, as a whisper, fading into the nitrogen of the air. Or written down on a piece of paper, ink bleeding into the organic fibers of the parchment.

Some of us have even screamed this word, a desperate plea, an extended promise, one hand outreached, impatient for another. Some of us have weaved this word into lullabies; some have murmured it between tears and midnight kisses.

'Stay.'”

正在一个女朋友。

 

Being a girlfriend. 

Being a girlfriend is not just about being beautiful and attractive for your guy. It’s not just about letting him chase you, letting him do sweet things every time you’re mad at him and not just receiving flowers and gifts during your anniversaries. It’s not about doing those girly things just to get his attention and not just about feeling mighty every time he did everything you want. It’s also being an emotional partner wherein you support him in every opportunity that he takes, you appreciate everything that he does for you and you thank him for doing it, you remind him on the things he must do and what he must not. Just because you know that you can always keep him on his feet, doesn’t mean you can manipulate him. You understand him not just as a partner but as individual too. you help him in every way showing him, that in a relationship, there’s no “I” or “you”, there’s only “we” and “us”. You know also that a man has their ego, and even when it become a little irritating sometimes, you still understand that it’s a part of his nature. A girlfriend is not just a term, it also has responsibilities that every girl must know. You’re a friend, a sister, a second mom, a teacher, and a best friend.

Two is better than one.

In a relationship, you need somebody who's gonna call you out, not somebody who's gonna let everything slide. You need somebody who doesn't want to live without you, but can. Not somebody that is dependent but somebody who is stronger with you. A relationship is two people, not one.

Don't let me.

Words may not leave these lips,

Words might not leave this heart,

But please don't take me for granted.
Don't use me just for the sake of filling your heart.

Take me in your arms and keep me there. 

Make me your princess and I'll make you my King.
..this I commit.

Please don't take me for granted.

I'll stop chasing. I know the consequences. I know, all too well, the pain. Just so to see if you would stop to look back, and notice that I've stopped. 

"Turn your head and look for me," hopefully whispering in my head.

All or Nothing

If you love me

for what you see,

only your eyes would be

in love with me.

If you love me

for what you've heard,

then you would love me

for my words.

If you love

my heart and mind,

then you will love me

for all that I am.

But if you don't love

my every flaw,

then you mustn't love me-

not at all.

Falling, Crashing; still Standing.

Time and time again, 
we love people who we cannot have.
Falling in love 
with those whom we can't be with.

Nothing hurts more than being so near yet so far.

My little quirks, 
not all will accept.
My insecurities,
not all shall bear with.
My clingy heart,
not all so uncomplaining.

It's so hard to find someone who'd love you unconditionally.

This heart's forever searching,
for its one and only.
I think I have found you,
This heart is beating for you.

...but am I your heart's last falling?

We could be everything together. 
We can make each other happy.
Kissing each other freely, 
and love with great urgency, not hastily. 

Darling, wherever you are, I'll be here; waiting patiently.

Old Fashioned.

 

I think old fashioned is cute. I think kisses on the cheek and forehead, actual dinner dates, and asking someone out in person is so precious. I don't think the guy should always make the first move, but I feel as if it's cuter if the guy asks out the girl rather than it being the other way around, because i's been like that for so long. I liked it when guys actually valued their girls and called them sweetheart, and beautiful, instead of babe or 'his girl' like she's a property.

Seeing Good from the bad.

Life changes every minute of everyday. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend and the person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and you’re glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just a big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s being thrown at you.

My love.

You are indescribable my dear. You are like the stars, and jupiter and mars, and the moon and the sun all merged into one. You are difficult and hard to figure, like quantum science. But you are so beautiful in every way. It’s as if you were made to be pulchritudinous and exquisite like a diamond and like fractals and art. You are unpredictable, just like a meteor waiting to strike the earth and waiting to stun me. You are the universe. 

Wish it was mutual.

No matter what happens there will always be a little place for you in my heart. No one will ever be able to take that away from you. Just remember that. 

If you need me, call me I don't care if I'm sleeping..if I'm having my own problems or if I'm angry at you. If you need me and if you need to talk to me, I'll always be there for you. No matter how big or how small your problem is, I'll be there.

I just wish you'd allow me in.

Always.

   

.....even when you don't know it.

Hey Hopeless,

Hey Hopeless,  

Hold up a minute - what makes you think that you can’t do this anymore?  You know, they say that survival is a talent, and you’re doing damn well to be here today.  You must be doing something right because you’re still alive today.  You must be able to do this, or you wouldn’t be here.  Seriously, it takes incredible strength to live each day, and so the fact that you’re here today?  That indicates you’re so incredibly strong.  Why give up when you’ve come so far already? 

Love, 

Ex-Hopeless.

My baby's right.

A Picture With You.

“A photograph never grows old. You and I change, people change all through the months and years but a photograph always remains the same. How nice to look at a photograph of mother or father taken many years ago. You see them as you remember them. But as people live on, they change completely. That is why I think a photograph can be kind.”— Albert Einstein

Compulsion.

I feel compelled,

to open my eyes to yours.

to inhale what is exhaled.

to watch you in your sleep.

to feel your warmth next to me.

to feel your heartbeat on my bare skin.

to go the less subtle way to just get you to notice me.

to want to be that reason for your smiles.

And you want to know a secret?

Yes, it was a hint.

Walking.

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”

—	F. Scott Fitzgerald

Right time.

Never play with the feelings of others because you may win the game but the risk is that you will surely lose the person for a lifetime. -William Shakespeare

If you have someone, who goes out of their way and do things they usually don't do and say things they usually don't say, keep them. Don't go looking for something better. 'Cause once you do, the moment you realize what an amazing person that person was to you, they've already moved on to somebody else who realized it sooner.