Bugsie.

am i real
do the words i speak before you
Make you feel
That the love I have for you
Will see no ending?

Well, if you look into my eyes
Then you should know
That there is nothing here to doubt
Nothing to fear
And you can lay your questions down
'Cause if you'll hold me
We can fade into the night
And you'll know

The world could die
And everything may lie
Still you shouldn't cry
'Cause time may pass
But longer than it'll last
I'll be by your side

Take my hand
And gently close your eyes
So you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight
Than what I've for you
Well, if you feel the same way for me
Then let go

We can journey to a garden no one knows
Life is short, my darling
Tell me that you love me
So we can fade into the night
And you'll know

The world could die
And everything may lie
Still you shoudn't cry
'Cause time may pass
And everything won't last
But I'll be by your side
Forever by your side
So you won't cry

Parting is never easy.

Significant pieces that you'll find in every song that cross your mind. ♥

It has been perhaps almost three months since you landed here.
Small and cute, some rather tall, all super nice.
It has been a real pleasure to have 'lived' with you, though a mere 5 to 7 hours daily.
At times some of you would drive me so mad.
While some other are gems and super pleasant.

Well, as they say, life is always full of ups and downs.
In this few hours of a day, I've truly felt it all.
From being so appreciated, to being so accused, to being so guilty for having to raise my voice to keep the peace and order of the class; which always saddens me, as I do not wish to have done so.
Know that has always been my last resort.

Tsk! I should be sleeping right now.
However I can't. Perhaps you are all in my mind.
I didn't know how attached I got to you.
It honestly is the irony of life.

Everyday, most of the time, and often we say goodbye.
To think that we would have be trained for parting.
Still, it is ever so hard to accomplish without feeling so heavy hearted.
I'll definitely miss all of you. My precious little lovers! ♥


PS: Our pictures will definitely be uploaded. I'm sorry for delaying it. Know that they are all precious to me!♥

Zero two hundred three five hours.

My first salt water; left side.

It's been so long since I last talked to her.

She was mad at me, but she messaged me to talk.

I realise that she needed a hug, even from so far away.

I wish I could reduce our distance somehow. 

To always be able to be there and give her a hug when she needs one. A shoulder for her to cry on. The ear she can tell all her sorrows to. The lips to speak comfort and hopefully sooth her broken heart. The arm she leans on for strength. Just being there to give her emotional support as she goes through all that.

I hate her lies.

Though they aren't exactly lies.

She only tells herself that and initially they were all lies, but after much repetition, she made herself believe them. She lives through them so perfectly that it scares me.

She tells me that she is doing alright and none of these matter.

"Love is so overrated, especially in the mortal world. So conceptual.

Everyone has their own meaning, and I think that I'm the fool for taking their love seriously. Giving them my heart. Opening that opportunity for them to see me at my most vulnerable."

She says those words but deep down, I do believe that she still wants and hopes to find someone right.

At least what she's doing now is awaiting for the right one.

I hope he comes before she loses herself.

She told me that she's forgotten how it feels like to be hugged, to be kissed, to even care sincerely that you'll go all out just to put a smile on that person's face. 

It hurts me to see her like that. She doesn't cry anymore. 

She seems so tough outside, but her tears I'm crying. 

It feels like I've lost her already. 

That kind hearted girl.
I can't find her anywhere in that body of which seems to be oh so familiar, and yet such a stranger. 

I honestly miss her oh so much.

I hate you for doing this to her!

She's just frozen in time. 

Everything and everyone moves forward, 

and so does her physical, but her heart doesn't.

“To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.”

—	Arundhati Roy

An Atlas of Depression.

“It is too often the quality of happiness that you feel at every moment its fragility, while depression seems when you are in it to be a state that will never pass. Even if you accept that moods change, that whatever you feel today will be different tomorrow, you cannot relax into happiness like you can into sadness. For me, sadness has always been and still is a more powerful feeling; and if that is not a universal experience, perhaps it is the base from which depression grows. I hated being depressed, but it was also in depression that I learned my own acreage, the full extent of my soul. When I am happy, I feel slightly distracted by happiness, as though it fails to use some part of my mind and brain that wants the exercise. Depression is something to do. My grasp tightens and becomes acute in moments of loss: I can see the beauty of glass objects fully at the moment when they slip from my hand toward the floor.”

—	Andrew Solomon

My drug.

I need my daily dose of songs.
I always listen to those few songs.
One to remind me of the broken promises people will make.
One to remind me there's still hope in life.
One to remind me of how painful it feels to be hurt.
One to remind me how it feels like to be human.
One to remind me to pull myself up again even if it's really hard.
One lullaby to sing me to sleep, a never ending sleep.
One to put me in a trance mode, serenity, the peace and happiness of the smell of rain.

I realise I don't have one to remind me of what it feels like to be loved.
Memories are what I keep and take out to view to remind me of the happy times.
Forgive me for the emotions I've poured out to you.
You didn't need to hear them or know them.
Forgive me for I've not heard of the song that pulls me up from the ground.
I need my drug bad.

Appropriateness.

Don't talk, 

I'm not listening. 

Do write, 

Cos I'm reading.

Dorian Gray.

Even when you feel ugly or depressed or guilty or ashamed, there is an inner spark in you which is light. This light is your beauty. This light is your reflection of God. You are a child of God, thus you are beautiful.

其实谁都有一段不为人知的故事，
其实谁都会脆弱的想要一个停靠，
其实谁都想和某个人完​成曾经诺言，
其实谁都能微笑然后转身流泪，
其实谁都的生活都多少有那点苦涩，
经历风雨​，
我只想要少一点悲伤,多一点快乐。

Yummy People.

*om nom nom nom*

道歉不是不停的讲sorry就可以得到原谅；
爱情并不是不停讲I Love U，就可以得到真爱。
如果三言两语就可以解决问题，
这个世界会有更多的问题，因为大家会更肆无忌惮的去犯错。

Paul, Nina, Ian.

Woman, Oh you.

女人，你总是那么害怕离别，却总是假装坚强。

女人，你总是那么害怕黑夜，却总是暗自躲藏。

女人，你总是那么害怕独处，却总是孤单一人。

女人，你总是那么容易付出，明知是痛苦，却还那么执着。

女人，你总是那么容易受伤，明知是欺骗，却还自欺欺人。

女人，你怎么总是那么傻，让人心疼。

Let's.

Out.

Pain is weakness leaving the body.

Never think about the past it brings tears, Don’t think about the future it brings fears, Live this moment with a smile good and cheers.

我爱你，你却不领情，

那我还要继续这样傻的爱你干嘛~

有些事情知道就知道，

不知道就不要装知道，有时知道了也要装作不知道~

一直希望美好的事情永远不会变，
然而永远不变的是铭记在心底的美好回忆~

Perfectly weird.

We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

Catch Your Wave.