MYMIRROR

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Itinerary.

1) Ministry of Noise.
(still thinking of the name.)
2) Scoring better grades.
3) Upgrade skills.
4) Better relationship with everyone
5) More fun this year!
6) Improve recipe for happiness + success
7) Grow a mustache. :{
(which is somewhat impossible...THEREFORE. Dang-Danggg-Dang! [below])

Anyways cheers!

And hope the picture put a smile on your face.

Cherio then!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Private.

For those who follow me and my dearest beloved stalkers, you would have noticed that I've private my blog the few 72hours back. Well, I have my reasons of doing so. But I certainly don't want to leave you out of my blog. So next time if this were to reoccur, and you want to still stay in tune with what's going on, feel free to leave your email so that I may add you guys as readers. (:

Btw, a quick question.
How would you like me with facial hair?

Monday, January 10, 2011

Moving on.

Feelings don't die easily because we keep feeding them with memories. That's exactly the reason why it's so hard to move on.

So does that mean that killing all those memories will help you move on?

Honestly, if you ask me. Yes. It does mean exactly just that.

However, before you do that, feel free to blog about it (private blog) or write it in your diary. Reason? So that some other nosey people won't come minding your business and ask you stuff that would just remind you more of the person.

Keep all the pictures in there. Every single one. And when you're done. Delete everything else that could remind you of that memory(ies). Seriously, it will help you.

And after you're pretty sure you're over your heartbreaker, then feel free to then browse your blog or diary back if you want to relive the memory(ies). But I doubt you'd do so because you've already successfully moved on. Maybe only after those agonizing painful years shall you stumble upon it again then be reminded of it, and smile and laugh it off.

Why? Because you can now be more appreciative or grateful of what you have now.

Hopefully you'll have a better happier life then.

Good luck all heartbreakees.

It's never easy, but know that you won't have to get over it alone. (:

Cheers!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Near past.

Viewed someone which I hadn't seen for a few years. Saw some pictures I didn't get a chance to save before they left, I left. Seeing them again relived all my memories. I honestly have to say that I missed them. I miss you guys so much. Losing a family isn't easy. Losing my brothers, my sisters, it's never easy to do. It's the hardest and I dare say the most hurtful emotion yet. I wish I could turn back time. I wish I could.....
Just to be with you guys again. Just to feel that warmth again. It hurts so bad.

Screaming silence. These tears are so unbearable.
Never liked misunderstandings. Because of this.
Especially those which I never really did understood.
Please don't ask why I ask or sometimes interrogate you.
I never meant to hurt anyone.
I do rather it be me than you.
I'm sorry.

You were once cold.
I really did not understand.
Until now, I still don't.
But I want to know why. I still do.
I really want to know why you were taken from me.
Why all this was taken away.
God, is there a reason? There must be a reason to everything, doesn't it?
I'm barely able to hang on anymore.
Please, I don't want to lose anyone anymore.
Not in the near future please.

________I miss you.

Protecting Capital P.

Am amazed how in the animal kingdom, they are born to protect their loved ones. Their offspring. For the sake of evolution; survival of the fittest. Even humans have that inborn within them. But the only difference is that humans being the superior creature, they sometimes use their brains too much. Or rather some too touchy with their emotions and cannot and sometimes just will not control them.

Protecting you is just as or harder than protecting her.
Trying to save you became my daily job.
I can see you want someone to protect you.
Just not me. It's her.
It has always been her.
The one that plays in sin.
Playing like it's all fun and games.
Never too serious, cos that's me.
It's tiring to juggle two birds at once.
You don't know when one will peck you if you look away.

But all I have,...
I really don't want to say YOU.
It's all I have that churns my determination.
My motivation for everything.
I just got to be stronger.

What to do now?

One just has to grin and bear it.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Wanted.

Just got some online stuff. Was so excited and intrigued about it. Was totally not expecting to arrive so early, but darn glad to hear it was in the mail for me! However that happiness was a little too quickly evaporated. I bought some stuff, which was similar to something I had, and still have, but is already broken. I stared at it with amaze and utter glee, though somewhat doubting that it is the same thing as I had because of the casing and all. The look of it from outside its shell was so different.- Maybe because there was some liquid in it to retain its form. It didn't matter then. I kept it until I reached home to my room to open the surprise. It looked the same, felt the same, and well it didn't really have any smell- just like the previous one.

....A big big But..... it just wasn't the same when put on. -looks,feeling and all. [Sighs]

When will I ever find back the broken precious love I had? Now, I'll just have to do with what I have. Improvise I guess with things exterior to it. Until I can find it again. Until I have enough cash to get it again. Til then..... this is me, emoing about over broken glass of milk. Is it half empty or half full? Does it matter if you can't ever drink from it again? -[Tsk]

Anyways, will try to take some pictures of it. Then those whom are wondering what that broken thing is, will see it's unveiling. Til the 'picture-taking-mood' comes, Cherio.

Cheers! (:

Monday, January 3, 2011

A Runner.

A runner.
Those who run not only physically but emotionally as well.
One that runs from situations. Runs from problems. One seen to be cowardly and not ever the bravest of heart. Not ever one who is capable of handling any situation. But just as one who will run and run and run, even if it's takes years to run from.

Sometimes, you just need to escape and get away from some things until you have the solution.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

1st picture on the 1 of 1 of 11.

Eyes to raid your soul.

Edited picture of the first 2011 picture of me!

What do you reckon?

Our Last Supper.

"It was nice being with you. But now, I bid thee farewell." dinner.

That was one epic dinner! It wasn't really a dinner, somewhat more like supper.

It was our last supper, at least for the year 2010.

So as you can see the FOOOOODDDD there was there.

Too much epic food! Felt like heaven.

Too cramp to see anything?

Well. here's the closeup to the food mummy's bestie prepared,

and have I mentioned, in a very little amount of time only.

↑[Take 1]

[Take 2]↓

Then Brussels sprouts; pickled. Brought by Aunt Lynn's friend.

A kind hearted 'Ang Mo' man, though I did not speak much to him or gotten a chance to know him, but it's a vibe.

Yummy Cheese!

Awesome roasted chicken!

Delicious veges! Broccoli, celery and carrots with some sweet dipping.

Mom and her peeps got this one vege washing liquid, and seriously, it made the vegetables taste it's original taste. So much vegetable sweetness!

Carrots so sweet! As if sugar coated.

And as for the drinks; punch! It's so sparkly, fizzy and alcoholic.

You can get knocked out with a few cups. Literally.

Spot the floating raisin. *TeeHee*

and ...

..also by Mr. Ang Mo. (Sorry Sir, I forgot your name!)

Put them together and........ this is what you'll get.

Oink Oink!

One of my favourite! Baked potatoes!

Don't judge a book by it's cover.

Don't just a potato by it's skin!

Seriously, this tasted so epic! Looks simple, but tasted awesome.

Salad! Coslaw...

Something else with raisins! Love vege!

As for dessert, rice pudding!

(also has raisins in it. *teehee*)

The-Best-Part-!

I bet the caption has already said it all.

Oohhh! The cheese was and still tainted in my mind, so awesome!

This Cheese (above picture) is totally love.

What cheese is it?

-Garlic & Chives cream cheese!

There IS more to come!

Cheese Cheese Cheese Cheese Cheese Cheese Cheese

Here's one piece. Small but powerful.

Well, this is just going to be a post with lots of picture.

So, below are more pictures to come!

Food from my plate you shall now see!

So, after all that hearty meal.

Time for the toasts!

Drinks for everyone! *Weee~*

First off was a toast to all the awesome memories in 2010.

Then to remember all the pain and it's teachings. A lesson learned, it's failures not to be repeated.

To be grateful for all that you've gain and appreciate more of those you still have because God knows how much I've lost in 2010; friendship-relationship wise.

After all that reminiscence, comes to the other toast to welcome the New Year.

However, before that, guess what was indulged on that fair day.