One of my favourite days!

29th September 2011;

Was asked out by none other than Pei Xin, which was kind of mysterious, as she's usually not the kind to and especially at that time and date. Was just expecting a catching up, and a tease or two, as she's usually our target for bullying. TEEHEE! So there we were, Ke Xin, Pei Xin, Mandy and I. We went around smelling perfume, basking in some maternity clothings, which we had no idea why. Perhaps it was boredom and just had to find something to do as we were waiting for 3pm to have sushi! 20% off!

Sushi time and we did and said soooo much in that short period, and unknowingly 2hours went by just like that! We had talks about printers [winks], about phone covers and about FISH! Did a little 'acting' scene with Ke Xin (main actress), Pei Xin (director), Mandy (Asst. director), and I (ke-le-fe)! Somehow that lead to so many other stuff and about sewing. Then about boyfriend and girl trouble. 

Seriously love laughing with you guys!

Well after sushi, we kind of pushed around the bill even if the money was on an average basis and everyone paid for their own lovely sushi plate. It, as usual ended up in Pei Xin's hands, but she had to be excused away somewhere as she had a call. So ended up with Mandy paying. Not too long after stepping out of the shop, and there they were!

Christy and Kennie! With a large cake with candles in their hand!

Yes, the bestie; Mandy and I got our 21st birthday surprise! At a shopping mall!

Well it's a first for me, and I think my face was bright pink! And after we had settled down at another shop, thinking back, there were ALOT of people staring at us! Gosh! Really a first and honestly, I never did expected it. So it was really a surprise.

Do not have pictures with me BUT will get them soon!

Really a million thanks to..... 

Kennie papa and darling Christy, for coming all the way from KL for this!
And choosing a delicious Black Forest with Cheese cake!
Pei Xin and Ke Xin! for the lovely joyous 'betrayal'.Not forgetting this almost-but-not-official-21-yet-but-had-birthday-cake-already-birthday-girl-Mandy too! Thank you all for the cake, the presents, and the memory!

PS: Couple who video-ed the whole scene, please do not upload it in Facebook or Youtube! *blush*! Though I doubt that you'll actually be reading this. 


PPSS: Dear hope you're not 'pantang' with the red for your name. Just felt like putting red because you've been wanting RED! 

Wondering if there are anymore surprises heading my way. Will tell you if there are!

Tarzan and Jane.

Crazy am I?

[25/9] Belated post.

Thank you! Am truly happy, though it's one week earlier for a present!
I chose that picture because it was something related to the post. You would know if you asked before or heard me share about my natal day. Still, thank you ! really.

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My symphony.

To live content with small means,

to seek elegance rather than luxury,

and refinement rather than fashion,

to be worthy, not respectable,

and wealthy not rich,

to listen to stars and birds, 

babes and sages with open heart

to study hard, to think quietly,

act frankly, talk gently,

await occasions, hurry never in

in a word, to let the spiritual,

unbidden and unconscious,

grow up through the common...

-this is my symphony.

William Ellery Channing

Today's poison.

Those who believe in democracy, liberty or
freedom; must support equality.
Those who believe in truth, justice or love already do.

Amber Heard

The Mask.

A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness

Her beliefs hidden from most

Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown

Wondering where her place is in this life

She has come close to sharing herself

Never completely revealing anything to anyone

Feelings of invisible chains corner her

When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes

Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp

She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world

At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears

But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out

She roams day by day, playing roles

Strength unknowingly resides in her

History repeats itself once again

The translucent veil she so proudly wears

Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside

One day there will be no more mask for her to wear

One day her beliefs will be known

One day she’ll know her place in this life

One day she will share herself

ONE DAY this mask will be NO MORE.

Keep trucking.

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You could be the one.

Our conversation, honestly reminded me of the past.
The good old times, though now it's still good but it will never be the same.
I would like to go back, but I've made a decision.
This decision I made, when it all came crashing in.
I won't go back to the past. It's the past for a reason.
Who would buy a book if in every other 5 pages, it writes of the same old story.
Maybe, it was meant to be a lesson learn.
I don't think you need to know,
That half truth I told.
All I can say is that,You're just assuming.
Because I never did say anything about everything.

Perhaps it's better this way. It has got to be.
Humans, Life, and Time. We're all meant to walk forward and not walk in rewind.
It would be disastrous if the Earth were to move in a different course than to move in front.
This I hope you'll understand.
I want happiness for you. Maybe just maybe it shouldn't be me giving it to you.
Merci amoureux. 


I will always remember those kind words.
"Weird why no one see what I saw" 
Thank you for them. It really means alot to me. It honestly does.

Tiger eyes.

‎" The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen. "

Merci Beaucoup!

‎" In life you will meet two kinds of people.

Ones who build you up, 

and ones who tear you down. 

But in the end, you will thank them both. "

i ♥.

You don't need other people's permission and affirmation before you can take action. Never second guess yourself!

Temptation.

Waiting for the RIGHT ONE is never easy, especially when the WRONG ONE looks YUMMY.

“I can live alone, if self-respect, and circumstances require me so to do. I need not sell my soul to buy bliss. I have an inward treasure born with me, which can keep me alive if all extraneous delights should be withheld, or offered only at a price I cannot afford to give.”
— Charlotte Brontë

Suggestions, please.

What's your idea of a perfect 21st birthday present?
- For a girl ;)

Just Listen.

“This is the problem with dealing with someone who is actually a good listener. They don’t jump in on your sentences, saving you from actually finishing them, or talk over you, allowing what you do manage to get out to be lost or altered in transit. Instead, they wait, so you have to keep going.”

Butterfly.

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems. Though sometimes, deep down,  I wish someone would force it out of me. I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I also believe that there is good in all people, perhaps that's why I get hurt so easily. Sometimes I do think that I care too much for the people close to me, making me more vulnerable to people. I trust easily too, though when I get skeptical, I go all out for it. I love to think rather than talk, that's because usually when I talk somehow people don't really get me, or I just plainly blurt the wrong things. I would rather write my opinion out rather than to say them, especially in my blog or my diary because downright, people can't really take honesty or have their perception or thoughts being objected by others. God knows how many would have been offended already, or perhaps have already been. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange…and sometimes, just don't know what I want. Often a switch between an optimistic pessimist and a pessimistic optimist, but this is me. Take it or leave it.

“It’s weird not to be weird.”

- John Lennon 

Bestest.

Unwanted yet so badly Wanted.

It’s the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder. 

What if for some reason things don’t work out? 

How are you possibly going to live without them?

Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you used to never hangout with, now owns most of your time. Someone that you thought you’d never love, owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold on forever. 

4:07am: Casual-conversation-with-you.

The time states the moment of this being written.

Can you hear my thoughts?

Can you feel what is going on in here?

I somehow doubt you do if you say so.

Unless you're Him.

I was talking.
It started off with rolling about in bed.
Rolled til I didn't want to roll anymore.
It feels like I woke up from sleep or something.
Just so filled with energy that I have no idea what to do with it but to blog now.

It's been so long since I had such a long chat with my Daddy.

It wasn't just any talk. It was more heart-to-heart. Some things that I wouldn't even tell anyone or even dare write it out. Perhaps in a picture, but it would be so abstract that eventually I'll forget what it means and look back at it with a daze wondering, trying so hard to crack what it was before.

Alot is going through my mind. Is, has, and will, still continuing.

God knows when I'll finally be able to sleep, but it sure isn't right now.

Hence, whoever you are, you'll have to bear the pain of read further into my blogpost.

To you, reading this. You know what?

Don't forget to smile. Even how significantly fake it might be.

Smile because you can.

Smile because you should.

Smile, because it makes a difference in everything you do and see.

Laughter works too, fyi.

I should know it works, because even looking back at the memories, looking up into the sky. When I'm not smiling, tears flood my eyes from all the pain, but while smiling, the feeling changes, well at least now, I see beauty in things, appreciating the moment.

I made a promise to myself.

Alot of promises in one.

I know it's lame or just plain cheesy writing about it here.
But you know, it is because I'm writing it here that I can't take it back. Even to myself.
Perhaps I won't tell you what it is. Or else (you know who you are) will rub it in for me everytime I break it, but it is because I'm human that I know that I might break it. I don't know how long I'd last with this promise. I don't how many times I'll break it by forgetting it. But what I know is that I'll try. I'll try to NOT break it. I know I shouldn't, because at least that's how much I owe myself that promise.

I hardly make promises. If you know me, you should know.

I'm making an exception to myself. Because, I can.

And I think that alot of people should just be like that. Do things, just because you can. But of course do consider the feelings of others. And when I say 'do things', that doesn't mean have sex or go one-night-standing every girl or guy at sight. Seriously, that's not what I mean. And please don't do that. No jokes.

But anyways, wish me luck in this.
I have a call coming in, and have to seriously knock myself out cold soon.
Guess what, I manage to write this in half an hour.
I know this isn't my usual posts, but what the heck. It's my page :)

So CHEERS yal!

P/S: 

For those who hasn't notice it or are new to this blog, I removed the chatbox where you could opine away for the simple reason that it was firstly redundant, and secondly, there were too many unknown people commenting (though they were encouraging and nice comments about the blog and post and all) but linked their names to some unknown website and a few VIRUS links - which the last one just crossed the line. I'm sorry I had to remove it, for the safety of EVERYONE, not only my own laptop, but whoever else who pops in to view the posts. So if you have any comments or thoughts, do feel free to comment. If it's worth the reply, I'll definitely reply. But if it's just a 'lol' or '...', seriously I don't even know what to reply to that. Try your luck though. =) CHEERS!