Let her be.

Sometimes all a girl wants to do is just get emo for awhile. Just to get it out of her system cos all the positivity kind of sucks if it's just all positive. Her thoughts. People will only appreciate light when there is an absence of it; darkness. People will only appreciate others when they start walking out of their lives. Humans are weird. To notice something only when it's gone.

So let her just be emo so either just be emo with her or console her.

Don't give her hope then put her down. She's vulnerable.

Fragile to the touch.

Just be emo.

Just stop at the sign.

Sometimes things get so bad that all I can think of is death.

When would it come?

How would it come?

Things just go through my mind,

and I just think that everything will just end.

No more mocks.

No more insults.

No more being laughed at.

Or made into jokes.

Need not pretend.

Nor put on a fake smile.

Or wear the same old mask everday.

Need not go through all those tiresome times.

And depressing ones like now.

It's all good when you grow wings and fly up.

Everything else just goes away.

Death is all I think off.

Stop me.

I know I don't need to think so.

Just stop me.

It's done!

After one whole week of madness, everything's finally settled! Whoopee! Grins.

One whole week, busy finding lecturer, HD, and getting all the assignment topics, summing to a big whole messy week of fun and distress. Laughs. But mostly, my groupmates and I had problems with the timetable. We couldn't change our classes' time slots because of all the clashes. The lecturer was gracious to allow us to switch classes for we had to attend another class because of THAT mix up. But it wasn't official and didn't quite made sense, because we would be at two places at the same time. But it seemed that we were stuck and just cornered with the conclusion of having to drop that subject and take up another subject which I did not quite fancied. Douche face.

So off to our HD; Head of Department. I liked her alot. But I like most of my lecturers alot too. They are so inspiring and so awing. Just respect them so much for who they are. It's just so awesome. So anyways, our HD is really patient and really kind to us. Helping us to fix all our messed up timetables and classes even though it was kind of really troublesome. Even to us it seemed impossible and really crazy. But our HD managed. FYI, my HD really gained my respect and admiration because SHE is a woman. The more to prove that women aren't as weak as some may preconceive them to be. Her determination to help others really is out of her obligations cos frankly, I've been through situations where people even of the authority or higher power may just push you aside or say that there is no possible solution or nothing could be done, JUST to get you out of their face. But it's so different with her.

But I could tell that it was kind of problematic because this isn't the first class we had problem with and she was dealing with not 1 but around a class-full of people in total. And I guess the classes were so random it was out of her control. But she manage to talk and negotiate with the admins and worked out something.

And finally it's done!

Really appreciate all that has been done.

Not only to her. But to all who have been or have passed through my life.

Really am grateful to you all.

Cheers!

So be grateful with those around you. You might not know how much they may have sacrificed for you. It could be time, or just plain effort.

Bring it on!

Well, first off, I know I definitely SHOULD be sleeping now but just simply can't fall asleep. Moans like a zombie. Feeling so exhausted. Today was the first day of a new semester. And YAY! I'm in Year 2 ! Time flies so fast when you're having fun. Ponders. Hmmm. I kind of doubt this sentence. Well, today passed by really fast, like it just happened with a flick of a finger. And guess what. It wasn't really all that pleasant.

Had our first morning lecture today. Was so excited and glad to see one of my previous lecturer which I quite fancied lecturing. The lecturer kept asking whether we were in the right venue and class because she thought she was suppose to just teach the new intakes; the freshies. Chuckles. She asked quite a number of time I might add. I guess it was kind of a sign.

So we had classes after. But went out for lunch, well actually it was my "Breakfast", cos it was technically my first meal of the day. CK fetched us out! - The first time sitting in CK's car. His car had so many cute stuff in it. Laughs. So totally NOT like his car. We girls giggled behind because of all the cuteness. Then he said that it's his mom's car. Giggles MORE.

So after lunch, we had 1 whole hour, with nothing to do. Four people just sat there in silence, thinking of what to do next. So there I was, staring at you staring at her staring at him staring at me staring at you. =D Then it was decided to head back to campus.

We had a pleasant time again in CK's car. The boys were as adorable as always! Laughs. Making us laugh all the way. Chortles.

To the office to get our results we head. But before that we stopped by our faculty's office to get some forms. Then it occurred. We met the lecturer for the morning's lecture, and were told the BAD NEWS; that we aren't suppose to be in that class for it is for the Year1 students. Sobs. Honestly, I kinda really wanted that lecturer. Love the teaching ways. Just has that warmly cozy feel rather than dull lecturing. Making something so weighty feel like it's only a feather. Oh well, what's left to do? We just thought of switching to the other lecture class when we found out that it clashes with some other class.

It's kind of a long story. So long story short (since I'm kind of being very "elaborative" today) is that our timetable is all messed up. A HUGE gap for one of the days between our classes. Like almost 7-8hours break-time before the next class.

I guess some people will look at it as time to go back to sleep or time to rest before the next class, but well, for me, after going back home after class (if I do), the feel to just snooze at home and skip class. Douche face.

Deficient sleep and this icky sneezing spell has made me kind of cranky. Feeling lethargic the whole time. But yet more work needed finishing -Preps for the upcoming event! It's going to be the first time organizing such an event; for me. But I'm grateful to have my dear and darling and gang to help in organizing it! Thanks you guys!

So I guess the day wasn't all that bad. Just some messed up classes' time.

But aside from that, it was all good. Had laughs and fun with them. I'm glad I wrote this ESSAY, Laughs. I kind of saw how exaggerated I made the day seemed, when it wasn't really that bad because I have posies to have my back and be there all the way. So now, I'm all pumped up for tomorrow's event! Can't wait for it. Hope it'll be a success though the lack of time for better preparations.

Oh Oh! And I almost forgot! More sweets to sweeten my day, I got this lovely necklace from darling. She bought two; one for dear and another for me. Now three of us have the same kind of necklace but with a different pendant. Will upload pictures of it soon. I've got lots of surprises and presents this month (meaning the month of May). TeeHee! Glee!

And what do you know,

time does fly when you're having fun!

Cheers!

Jailbreak please.

All's well that ends well? I think not.

And just when you think nothing could get any worse,

it comes whopping you right at your head!

Well, to know this story, we need to rewind back to yesterday night at about 2100hours.

Mandy and I were talking about going back to campus. When and what time to leave for hostel, which was initially today; 29th May. Then somehow a friend asked about going to the movies before going back. So we set to meet at noon for movies then go back to the hostels on Sunday.

Noon, Saturday, 29th May 2010.

Mandy called me. I woke up to her call after she rang me 3 times. I realised I was late for our date. I dash off to wash up and get ready for the outing. 1230hours I was all done and ready to leave. I reached for the keys from my bag's front pocket but nothing. I opened the mid pocket to search thinking I might have misplaced it, and still nothing. I practically ransacked my whole entire house looking for that one bunch of keys of mine. GAWDDD.

It's 1250hours, and the movie was at 1330hours. And I was STILL stuck in the house. With no key at sight. No spare key in sight too. I was on the verge of breaking down due to recent events. Finally after multiple messages to my family, then I got a reply on 1300hours. Apparently the spare key was at home; somewhere. I searched for it and found it. My heart leaped with joy. I managed to open the front door. Skipping to my room to get my bag, I came out to realise that I could not open the front gate. Another failed attempt. Screaming all the way inside.

So up until now, I'm still jailed home. And I found out multiple uneventful noes events. Some rather depressing I might add. It brought me to tears. But after much tears, I do feel better. I recall Teddy saying "You're like a baby. You forget everything after you cried." Well, it's not forgetting to be exact, but a slight amnesia which I guess is my defense mechanism to help keep me sane from all the threatening events that's potentially causing or have caused me breakdowns. But anyway all that sober has given me quite a migraine. So, fare thee well. Hopes and prays hard for myself to find my keys soon.

Cheers all.

Pretendency strikes again.

Mascara's running.

and these water-proof eyeliners are now lanes of tears, telling where each tear has gone.

Nothing can stop these salty water of emotions from flowing.

Everything's coming in a rush.

Just pouring in like dusk.

It's like an adrenaline rush of emotions.

That girl sits in the corner.

Smothered with all that's in motion.

Slowing losing control of all.

Everything's so noes now.

Small things can be made into a big fuss.

Everything's just magnified.

All she can do is cry.

Her heart's shut,

she doesn't want to be hurt.

But those in her heart are already leaving one by one.

She thinks hard of what to say,

but all that comes out is tears.

Her heart hopes it is all a dream.

Like a doll in an awful nightmare.

And when she wakes up, everything will be okay.

She tries and tries to sleep.

Then wakes up really thinking that it's all a dream.

But that didn't seem to be the case.

Mascaras and eye liners are now all gone.

Washed away by the salty waters of emotions.

Now all that can heal that sliced up heart of hers is time.

Time to get over the fact that people will come and go in life. And that's something one has to deal with and take it as it comes.

But that doesn't mean it's the end of a friendship or a relationship.

The heart will always be there.

Pictures and memories.

She tells to herself that being sad will not help the situation.

And will not help others get through it any easier than it is.

Be happy she said.

At least you can infect them with joy and laughter,

and then get rid of the sadness and anguish.

Sometimes putting on a mask bluffs the emotions of our soul.

She picks up the mask slowly, saying to herself,

"you can't go back now. Put down the past and move on."

..and puts on the mask of pretendency.

"It's not gonna help to put on a smile when all you wanna do is cry, a mask isn't gonna compliment what you already are..." -- The photographer of the picture.

The one and only.

He's my one and only!

Aside from mom and dad, he's the first to have my hugs, my trust.

I love him so dear.

My beloved brother.

I've missed him so dear. He hasn't been home for 60 days.

Two months ago, he went for NS; National Service.

And now he's back !

Just in a matter of hours he'll be home, sweet home. (:

Can't wait to see him!

He's so much tougher now.

So much more independent.

Makes every sister proud. (:

Another picture of him while on a trip at Penang.

Though he's all grown up, and more self-dependent,

He'll always be my dear little brother.

Just can't wait to hug him now.

This is my one and only bro and me. LOVES.

He is so not over her.

He is so not over her.

He tries his best to put a smile that says, "She's so last news, I'm fine". But in reality, it's killing him inside. He misses her. He thinks of her all the time. Everything just reminds him about her.

He plans to tell her how he feels.

He plans to express what's just suppressed and repressed all these while.

He drinks to forget.

He drinks but regret.

It's just insane threat.

She told him to smile. Just one big smile to forget about the other her.

Just being happy once, sincerely, and it kind of erases a bit of the sadness and the frown on his face which should be the other way round.

Booze was his technique he said. He couldn't smile. Not without torturing himself in the process of it. So, Booze.

She then says,

"Booze gives you amnesia, but it's only temporary. And one day you'll realise that it's not a solution."

Friend to friend she told him not to be an emo-whore.

Guys who are just so desperate aren't so much fancied. They just appear whiney and babyish. A definitely two big NO NOs to desperation.

Now all she can do is to give encouraging words. Keeping his head and mind busy from falling back into that pit of misery. You'll be dazzled to know how much some encouraging words and little hugs can do to boost a person up.

She just thinks to herself, wondering why so many people around her are having problems. Including herself. It hurts just as much to see another person who's going through almost the same thing as she is. She just sits there, staring at people with problems that come her way. But honestly, it didn't really bother her much.

It's just people with flaws loving others with flaws. It's an unfair world. But not the Creator who does things with reasons.

I do hope that everyone, both he and she will be happier.

Friends, be happy always.

My personal quote,

"If being sad canchange anything.

if it could, i would be depressed by now."

That's all I've got so far.

Cheers.

Beautiful People.

An awesome singer and song which I heard from Oprah.

If you're wondering who the singer is,

His name is Andrea Bocelli. An Italian pop tenor.

Born in 1958, at Lajatico, Tuscany, Italy.

He has a great passion for music, and is really gifted with an awesome voice.

And just for your info, Bocelli is blind.

He was diagnosed with Glaucoma.

Glaucoma is a disease in which the optic nerve is damaged, leading to progressive, irreversible loss of vision.

And from a football accident, he lost his sight completely at the age of 12.

So, that's about Bocelli.

Now about the song which brought tears to my eyes.

Yet warmed my heart. Making it skip a beat and wanting to do flips.

"The Prayer."

Though the song was a duet of Bocelli and Dion, for the movie Quest of Camelot.

But I came across this video clip where I simply just love Heather Headly's voice.

I hope this song will touch your hearts just as it has mine.

Enjoy. (:

LYRICS:
I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know.
Let this be our prayer, as we go our way.
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe.

La luce che tu dai
Nel cuore restera
A ricordarci che
L'eterna stella sei.

I pray we'll find your light,
And hold within our hearts
And stars go out each night,
Ai,ai....................

Nella mia preghiera
Quanta fede c'e.
Lead us to a place ?

Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza,
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza.
Ognuno dia una mano al suo vicino,
Simbolo di pace...di fraternita.

La forza che ci dai
E desiderio te
Ognuno trovi amor
Intorno e dentro se.
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.

We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above.
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love.
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.

Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverai...

Quote Collection.

I just love quotes. And I save quite alot of webpages with those quote in them.

I see quotes as inspirations.

Words of wise men.

And love those especially those with philosophical values in them.

So i'm just thinking of compiling them all here.

So here are some quote which I fancy.

"Every edit is a lie."

-- Jean-Luc Goddard

"Cinema is the most beautiful fraud in the world."

-- Jean-Luc Goddard

"Your imagination is your preview of life's coming attractions."

-- Albert Einstein

"Live as if your were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."

-- Gandhiji

"Don't compromise yourself. It's all you've got."
-- Janis Joplin

"Perhaps all music, even the newest, is not so much something discovered as something that re-emerges from where it lay buried in the memory, inaudible as a melody cut in a disc of flesh. A composer lets me hear a song that has always been shut up silent within me."
-- Jean Genet

"No good opera plot can be sensible:... people do not sing when they are feeling sensible."
-- W. H. Auden

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say, or how to ask for what we really need."

-- Unknown

"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny."

-- Frank Outlaw

"Life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it."
-- John Maxwell

"Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you."

-- Erich Fromm

An answer needing no words.

What more can be said?

The only language every language will understand.

"dot dot dot" = "...."

In other words, silence.

Silence is the only thing I can do now that could only seem right to me.

No words to hurt anyone or me.

No gestures to indicate anything else to lead you on or put you down.

Just plain nothing.

Silence.

But yes, I'm aware I'm only running away from the matter.

And I don't usually run from them.

But for now, it seems like the best solution for me.

This is what I'll do now.

"Don't tell God how big the problem is.

Tell the problem how big is your God."

Here's a song for yal.

Hush Hush. (:

Stuck in confusion.

So much misunderstandings.

You didn't get what I meant.

I didn't get what you meant.

Should I fix this?

Or perhaps it's better this way.

[Dilemma] #heartbroken#

I thought I knew what you want.

I thought I could fulfill that want.

But all along, I've been filling that empty tank with the wrong things.

It's so insane and foolish.

Thing should never be assumed.

Don't ask me read between the lines. You know I won't.

You always say you were not understood.

Have you ever taken a chance, a single second to understand this mind, right here.

Irony all over.

You're just as similar as I am.

Words with hidden meanings.

But we both know that neither I or you will state the obvious.

Both shant spell it out for you.

So how am I to know which or what you mean?

Dilemma is what it is.

A decision I never want to make.

It's not as easy as it seems.

Torn in between both worlds.

Am I too greedy to want it all?

I guess I am.

What is news?

So, What is News?

Answer : Noun,

News, as in a newspaper or television report, that deals with formal or serious topics and events.

Basically it's,

-Information about recent & important events

-Having sufficiently interesting quality to be reported

-Found in newspaper, TV, radio, and the new media; Internet.

So, you must be wonder like what the heck is this post about.

The main story happened two days ago, was reading news online, and was browsing til I came upon this one catchy headline.

"7 years on jigsaw, one piece missing."

(click the title or this link to the news)

I was wondering what the story was about.

..about Jigsaw?

or SAW; the movie.

or did a Jigsaw puzzle kill someone, or an accomplishment done?

or something farfetched.

It seriously WAS about a missing piece.

..it's like the classic "my dog ate my homework" story.

well, it'll be no fun it I told the whole story here. Do feel free to read the article.

My favourite part of it is, as quoted,

"The family fear the missing piece has been thrown away by mistake or eaten by one of Harris's pet dogs."

So, the whole point of THIS post is actually this.

I wanted to know the relevance of the news with what NEWS is about.

First point, Recent / Important? --- It is recent cos it's reported on 20th May 2010. Importance of it...hmmm...?

Second point, Interesting values? --- I guess, somewhat interesting.

Third point, found IN the Internet.

So, in conclusion, it IS somewhat news?

But I though news or the media was some sort of way to pass a message or to inform the people about happening, significant event which could/may/will/ already DO involve them.

--like murder cases, robbery, inform them to be aware, to be more careful, etc.

--or elections, voting, for democracy, etc.

--food or anything interesting; that's more news worthy.

--Happenings in the country/world.

...so I'm just questioning the relevance of the topic and News.

Laughs. It could be just me wanting to know.

Giggles.

Cheers.

Photography.

You know how I love photography so much, that it's practically like my daily bread, aside from music. And one of my ways of relaxing is to just browse through photographs, pictures taken by others. Just basking in the moment, soaking up the scenery or memory of that time. It's one of my medication when I'm all stressed out. So there I was with nothing to do, and I was picture-surfing, and came across this gallery of wedding photos which I would just like to share.

-by Melissa Prosser-

24th April 2010

Rachel & Kevin's wedding.

Isn't the capture of this just awesome?

Love this the most! How the petals of flowers fall, so nicely done!

Just simply love her perspective of things.

To be able to capture them with such a momentous feeling.

For more information, if interested to see more of her work and if interested in getting such a sightful photographer for your wedding day, birthday, or just events, then can see more about Melissa Prosser here.

It's Valentine's day all over again.

Today is the day some people find most interesting.

All the love, hugs, and kisses flying about.

It's the 20th of May.

which is 520; in Chinese if read fast kinda sounds like 我爱你.

我爱你 (wo ai ni) : I love you. ❤

And it's like Valentine's day all over again.

It's a day of love, if I may say so.

Smiles.

Although, to me, it's just like any other day.

But I found something really happy, and made my heart skipped a beat when I read it.

I found out from my dearest darling's blog.

..and apparently, she and him has made their relationship OFFICIAL.

Laughs.

So here they are.

My darling & her beau ❤

Don't they just make the sweetest most adorable couple.

Love them both to the MAX.

We've guessed for quite awhile that they were together but they didn't say anything about it, so we just stayed guessing and assuming that they were. And now that they are, OPEN UP THE CHAMPAIGN, this calls for a celebration! Teehee! (:

And though my post is a wee-bit late as it has passed midnight,

but still I wish and hopefully spread all my love to who-so-ever is reading (:

May you be blessed as well.

Just the same as I have to know that others are so happy in love.

And hope all my couple friends will always be happy, and those who are single,

Hey, you always got me. Laughs.

Love God.

Love Family.

Love Friends.

Love you all.

So, Cheers!

And happy 20th May to you all over again. ❤